Gift…

Sometimes it’s better not to talk about things that really hurts you. Pretend that it never happened, pretend that you’re okay. My life revolved in the office and in the four corners of my room.  Sometimes I would go out and watch movie alone, or spend my time at starbucks, make my time useful. The best thing that I realized out of it was that I could stand up on my own and I could handle my life even without Mr. Big. I learned to shop and enjoy my time even if I’m alone.  But I can’t ignore the fact that sometimes I missed him badly.

It was December, that I have decided to text MR. Big and ask him if we could see each other. In my mind I just wanted to see him and give him my Christmas gift just like old friends. I was not really expecting him  to agree, but he does.  We decided to meet at Gateway. I just can’t explain why i’m so excited and nervous.. It’s so ironic….I  just can’t help.  I’m on my way and I was in the escalator looking far away and when I turned my head all I could see was his face.  The momment I’ve seen him I just can’t stop myself missing him, still I love him.  It’s so ironic of me. The funny thing was that I don’t know what to do and I’m so conscious of  myself. I gave him my present and I could see in his eyes how happy he is. To my surprise he gave me a present too. I love it…  I just don’t know why i’m so happy that momment but still I’m hurting. We ate lunch and watch movie together  and have fun for the rest of the day.  i’m so happy that time, and I realized I still love him that much.   Sometimes, we would realize how important that person in our life,  until he is gone.

Few days after we meet, I took a  vacation for 3 weeks.