Mr. Big update

It’s been weeks, months I have not talked about MR. Big… What happened to him…to us ?

After the breakup and no communication for a long time, we had a chance to meet through Yahoo Messenger.  This time I was not blocked from his list. We talked and he wants to meet me so we could talk. I really don’t know what to say that time . I don’t know if it’s the right time to meet him personally after the break up. I have the feeling that his not yet ready…

As we go through our conversation the situation gets worst. Exchanging of bitter words and it’s so painful. I was so hurt and he is too. His blaming me why we broke up and I’m trying to tell him that its not  just my fault. I burst out and cried so much in the office. Ishee my friend went to my place and comforted me and ask me to stay in the conference room so no one can see me with that situation. I really appreciate what she did…

I know Mr. Big was so hurt with the situation same with me. I go back at my desk after I’ve calmed down, pretending nothing happened.

Canny, went to my desk asking me if we could go home. She saw me crying. The good thing was that I don’t need to walk going home with a teary eye. Canny, drop me in front of the apartment still crying. When I get home… Mye, my roommate comforted me and Clarky tried to cheer me up with his corny jokes.. really appreciate it.

I receive a text message from Mr. Big saying “I was like this because I still love you and I can’t accept that we broke up and I can’t win you back.”…it hurts me reading it… I have been trying to reach out and been asking him if we could talk before and now he would tell me like that. I’m really confused! I just want a decent/formal break up and clear things out so we could have peace of mind.

We decided to meet few weeks ago it was Friday at Glorieta Mall.

It was so hard for me seeing him after 3months and I still love him… Haayzzzzz… His smiling when he seen me walking to his direction. As for me, I’m maintaining the serious look in my face so I won’t burst out into tears. We ate first at Teriyaki  Boy. He didn’t each much. We  talk and almost we fight again. Hayzzz… After dinner we decide to talk calmly and we talked about  us and what went wrong. To make it short..

We have decided that we will start as being friends again, go out sometimes, and know each other again since there are a lot of changes.

After all what happened, I was just so thankful that we have talked and despite the hurtful exchanging of words we still saved our friendship.