Alone

CELINE DION - Alone (Celine Dion)

Its been a while that I have not updated this blog. I have been busy lately at work. For a short time, there’s a lot of things that happened to me worth sharing of. 

I want to share this music I really like, it means a lot to me. Hope you like it.

Alone
Celine Dion

I hear the ticking of the clock
I’m lying here the room’s pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won’t end though
Alone

Refrain:

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

You don’t know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight,oh
You don’t know how long I have waited
And I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone

Refrain:

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

A little bit challenging

It’s early in the morning and I don’t know were to start working. I have hell lot to do in the office. I’m working as a project automation specialist in engineering company. I do support/administration with all the software used in the project. The project were I’m into just started, a lot of documentation, setup, orientation, and etc. We have a setup and technical audit on Thursday and I need to make sure we comply with the standards.  Haaayzzz. Also, 3 system needs to be develop using Asp.Net.  The other one should be finished within 2 weeks. How am I supposed to do that?

I’m trying to handle and cope up with work and the pressure. I’ve been running away with the programming stuff, and here I am trapped with the situation I can run no more. They are expecting me to be a programmer and be able to deliver a system I developed. I am emotionally driven person and like to do things passionately. I could do programming when there’s no pressure and I just do it because I am inspired to do so. Also, provided that I have enough time to work on it and my focus is just for that.  I can’t sustain doing the programming thing when I’m not focused with it, thinking that I just need to do it on my free time.

I WORRY too much because I take it seriously. I’ll take the challenge and do what I can.

Must consider…

One of the things one must consider before getting married or engaged is to live alone and free.

 

My friend, read this quotation somewhere and pass it to me. It means nothing to me at first, but when you give attention to it, you would realize what’s the true meaning of it.

Living alone means being independent and responsible enough to handle your life. Free to do the decissions in whatever challeges that comes your way.

A time for yourself and enjoy whatever you have. In that way, you would realize and  know whats important to you. Also, value what kind of life you really want.

 

friends……

Lately, I have been hanging out with my new friend Canny. We work in the same project and we usually stay late in the office. It all started when we have a little chat about life… love life to be exact.

From then on, we share ideas and our love story. After office, we grab some coffee at starbucks and talk a lot. I really enjoyed her company and I have a chance knowing her better.  Every Wednesday, she go to mass and she always invites me. I really appreciate her inviting me,  for I missed going to church every Wednesday. The last time I go to mass on Wednesday was during my college days.  

Last Friday, we watch a movie “Wanted” just the 2 of us and it was fun. After the movie, we meet her close friends and spend time at sturbucks.  Eight of us, were enjoying the time and company of each other. I am so happy and enjoyed spending my time with great and nice people. I realized, there are a lot of nice people out there.  We just need to open our hearts and try to meet new people not just limiting ourselves with what we have around us.

I admire their friendship, the relationship that made stronger over time despite the individual differences and different places. Part of me wants to have close friends for life.

I feel so blessed with all the people I met everyday and Canny my new friend. My thoughtful friend Donna…. Thanks for all the help and inspiring me to be happy everyday despite the circumstances that comes my way.

My Immortal

Evanescence - My Immortal (Evanescence)

I got an email few weeks ago from Mr. Big with the subject: My Immortal.

Opening the email are the words I could only read.

“This would be my last song to dedicate to you.” 

My Immortal

I’m so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

‘Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won’t leave me alone

These wounds won’t seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There’s just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]

When you cried I’d wipe away all of your tears

When you’d scream I’d fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I’m bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won’t seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There’s just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I’ve tried so hard to tell myself that you’re gone

But though you’re still with me

I’ve been alone all along

[Chorus]