Freedom…..

Many people fought to have freedom, but what really is Freedom? Is Freedom means free of doing something or anything you want?

 I’ve spent a night contemplating what kind of freedom I am fighthing for.  The more  I think about the more I felt I was wrecked by my own thoughts….

I fought my freedom with my parents after graduating college. To be free and independent  enough to handle mylife,  I choose to work away from home where I don’t have any relatives around just a couple of friends and my Mr. Big. I am carefree to move and do whatever I want not bounded with the rules imposed by my parents…

I fought my freedom with the relationship I thought has enslaved and tortured me. Freedom that has a high price, that bears a painful scar with malice.   I hurt someone who loves me dearly, because I want to free up myself  from expections and I want him to be free with the burdens his carrying trying to understand my mood swings.. Burdens and expectations we both imposed in our life.  In fact, I have a lot of free time now, free to go out, free to be alone, free to sit down and do nothing…free to do things I don’t like..

Now, that I am away from home, no Mr. Big - Am I totally  free? Free with the ghost of my relationship?  Free to do anyting I want?

I just learned :

Theres no absolute freedom but the freedom to choose anything you like and then commit yourself to that decission.