Being the eldest in the family was so hard. I have 3 siblings and 2 is in college now. Much more, when the family is financially challenged. This past few moths/days I have been financially and emotionally disturb. Taking much responsibilities for my family is both fulfilling and sad. Sometimes its so sad that I could not give enough help for my family. It really pierce my heart. Sometimes I would have my escapade in my dreamland to just give me hope and look forward for tomorrow.
Last week I got my salary, realizing it was not enough to cover all my financial needs. Allowance and school needs of my 2 siblings, house rentals, my allowance for 2 weeks and etc. Checking my wallet today, I only got 50php left …. I asked a friend and borrowed 200php. His just too nice to let me borrow.. thanks so much. I’ve been praying for help and you know what he heard me…
It was an unexpected, a mid year bonus is coming. God is really Good and just right on time. I really feel blessed and he just sends me help whenever I need. I’m so thankful with all my heart that I could send and help to my family.
I know, I should manage my finances well and its not just an option but my responsibility. I know I can’t share what I don’t have with others but when it comes to my family, I could move mountains. I’m the only person they could hang on to. I love them so much and I missed them badly.
PS: Lord please take over with my life…..