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Yesterday when I was lying in bed looking nowhere and feeling awfully bored with life in this great world, a thought appeared, its been a while since we spent our weekends together. Its been a while that we have a great time. remembering the times when we laugh till our stomach aches…none that i can remember though…

Looking back with the past, tears run down on my face. Feeling so cold and empty. I was thingking then that life is so beautiful spending with you, until sometime I have realized that things were not the same as I imagined it to be. You have changed and so do I. Changed that brought us to have our own separate life. It had been very painful when I had nobody but myself when I went through some of my greatest chalenges. I could cling to no one for I felt that everybody abandoned me. I have fallen vulnerably from the pedestal and what hurts me when theres nobody to catch me. I broke myself into despair and ironically solve the pieces of the puzzle to its form. The scars have clung on me. I was able to make it , but sadly it was no longer me.

Right now, im slowly adjusting and blending myself to the environment. I don’t know whom to trust, whom to cling on, whom to bond with. I am just afraid that one day, someone would come along and disturb my silent world and will disbond me from the people who are holding me. Somehow I need a buffer….but who’s willing to do so? A question i could not answer……….