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February 25, 2009



Sometimes it’s better not to talk about things that really hurts you. Pretend that it never happened, pretend that you’re okay. My life revolved in the office and in the four corners of my room.  Sometimes I would go out and watch movie alone, or spend my time at starbucks, make my time useful. The best thing that I realized out of it was that I could stand up on my own and I could handle my life even without Mr. Big. I learned to shop and enjoy my time even if I’m alone.  But I can’t ignore the fact that sometimes I missed him badly. (more…)

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Update???

February 23, 2009

I don’t know why I can’t  find the passion to write when I’m happy . I have something in mind to share but I can’t put the words into writing.  But when I’m hurting, words just flow when I type.

Its been months and months I have not written  something here.  There are a lot of things worth of sharing. I could make use the reason that I don’t have a computer at home.  I think its valid, but  you could find a lot of ways if you really want something. right?

For six  months I have not updated  anything about MR. BIG. The big part of my life. Have I totally moved on?  Am I still hurting? Do I still Love him? Have I ever get a chance to find somebody else?  How’s my life? A lot of questions  that left un-answered..

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A LOVE LETTER FROM A FAMOUS MATHEMATICIAN TO HIS BELOVE

December 16, 2008

My Dear Love,


Yesterday, I was passing by your rectangular house in trigonometric
lane. There I saw you with your cute circular face,conical nose and
spherical eyes, standing in your triangular Arden.

Before seeing you my heart was a null set, but when a vector of
magnitude (likeness) from your eyes at a deviation of theta radians made a
tangent to my heart, it differentiated.

My love for you is a quadratic equation with real
roots, which only you can solve by making good binary relation with me.

The cosine of my love for you extends to infinity. I promise that I
should not resolve you into partial functions but if I do so, you can integrate me by
applying the limits from zero to infinity.You are as essential to me as
an element of a set. The geometry of my life revolves around your acute
personality.

My love, if you do not meet me at parabola restaurant on date 10 at
sunset, when the sun is making an angle of 160 degrees, my heart would
be like a solved polynomial of degree 10. With love from your higher
order derivatives of maxima and minima, of an unknown function.

Yours ever loving,
Pythagoras

 

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Reasons

November 20, 2008

Still, I’m not yet finished documenting my escapades and have not updated my blog for a couple of days, I mean  weeks. The reason why I was not able to update this blog:

1st, I have been thinking and assessing myself. Check my proirities and goals in life.  A realization that’s painful and needs time to start all over again. I felt so empty, and it create’s a hole in my heart. The past that’s  so hard to let go. I know I need some time just for myself and fill in the empty cup  of my soul so i could go back to life.

2nd, I’m obssesed with the Twilight Saga, I bought   the book set and have been busy reading it. now im reading book 3, Eclipse. I’ll try to finish the last 2 books this weenkend.

3rd, I’m so busy in the office that I work extra hrs and just go home and sleep.

Looking at my life, I felt so blessed and so thankful of all the things that happened and that will happen. Life is full of surprises.

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Some things you can do with your 13th month pay

November 5, 2008





I recieved an email a while ago and find this article worth sharing of. Please read below.. 

 

 

1. Pay off debt. If you have substantial credit card debt or other forms of debt, use your 13th month pay to pare down this debt. This will help you shorten the paying period and lower your interest expense. Being debt-free is liberating and will improve your financial standing.

 

2. Save. If you haven’t started a savings fund at all, this is the time to do so. We’re up for uncertain times ahead financially because of the global financial slowdown, so save when you can. Use the full amount of your 13th month pay to jumpstart your savings fund, or if you have other needs to meet, save at least 10 to 20 percent of your 13th month pay. (more…)

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For a while

November 2, 2008

It’s been a while i have not updated  this blog. I have been busy lately with work and personal life. I have learned a lot of things during my travel and at the sametime I realized there’s something missing in my life and I really need to find out.

I want to share my escapades in England and things that I learned during my trip in my next post here. For a glimpse of my trip you could check my photos. I have uploaded some pictures during my trip. Experience Indeed!

 

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Journey

October 2, 2008



Finally, I got my visa and im so happy that I could make it to the training.  I’ll be able to reach one of my dreams and so blessed enough to get a chance to travel, learn new things, meet a lot of people which is truly an experience.

I packed my things friday morning, wearing a smile in my face. So excited, a litle bit scared but calm enough and ready to see the other part of the world. At 7:30 pm, a driver is waiting in his best suite  in a Cefiro car, waiting for me to drop me off in the airport…I wore a nice yellow blouse with my jacket on, feeling so great and feeling like a princess.

I arrive at the airport at 8:30 and checked in my luggage and went to the lounge, relax in a comfortable chair, and  grab something to eat. The best part travelling in a bussiness class. Trully a luxury for me.Everything is new to me.  The funny thing was that at first I don’t know what its like when your in a bussiness class accomodation, I don’t have an idea that the buffet is free and the drinks are free and you could grab anything you want as much as you can. I learned to observe, ask the right person and savor the moment. (more…)

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workplace

September 25, 2008

Sometimes we are forced to do something even if we don’t like.

I leave in the office 9:00 pm last night and I’m already here in the office 6:00 am. Still dizzy and sleepy, I’m rushing to the conference room to set things up before the conference starts. When I arrived in the conference room a frown face greeted me.  I just stand there in the corner and tried to observe whats happening. Lady “M” tried many times to connect to the meeting session through Webex, yet with no success. I know shes so pist-off and pressured, she started to telling me, “Akala ko ba na setup mo na to.” I thought you have set this up and ready for use. She started blaming me and what I did, I told her “Can I barrow the keybord and mouse?”, I typed the URL path and puff it works.

I get irritated and can’t stand staying in the conference room. I go back to my desk and now Im writing this.  I wont let her ruin my day. It should have been lighter if she take it calmly so we could think and work on the solution. It would be faster and so easy.

Sometimes people get carried away and forget there values. I’m sorry for her. 

What I know is that I love my job and I will do my best in everything that I do with a great smile in my face. If you encounter this kind of people, don’t mind them, smile and be calm…everything will be alright.

 

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Alas

September 23, 2008

Alas! I recieved my visa last week -thursday!..Finally!.

I’ve been sorting out and preparing to pack my things now. Also, busy in the office to get things done before I leave…

I’m getting excited now! I have not yet prepared my itenery after the training… Hope evrything will gonna be fine…

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I promise to myself

September 19, 2008

  

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Believe

September 17, 2008

 

When I was a child, I wonder what the other side of the world look likes. Places  that I could only see in TV, magazine , post cards and etc.  I have had that question in mind since I was a child.  However, it was not until I have to undergo an On the job training  as part of my degree in college that I was able to have a chance to live here in Manila far from the place I grew up.

 

After my OJT I was hired in the same company where I undergo the training. Two years and 2 moths past here I am still working here in the same company.

 

Last month, I was told I will be the representative of the department for 2weeks training in Camberley UK.  I was so happy and blessed enough to have that rare opportunity in my life.  In return I will be bind for 3yrs in the company.

 

Few days left, I’m bound to London via Dubai on Sept. 27 at 12:05 in the morning. I had already confirmed my hotel accommodation, ticket has been issued already yet my visa has not yet arrived.  I have 7working days left before September 27 comes.

 

Despite this, I would tell myself and really feel that I was excited that my UK Visa is coming my way this Friday.  I would believe that the Universe conspires in helping me to achieve it. 

 

 

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The Unexpected

September 9, 2008

It’s the possibility of having dream come true makes life interesting. – Paulo Coelho

 

I have been so busy lately. Last August, I was informed that I will be attending training In Camberley, UK office. I am so happy to know that somebody in the group recommended me to  be the representative of our Department in the training. The training will start Sept. 29, 2008 for two weeks and I’m the only one coming from Manila.

 

Today is September 9, 2008, I have Hotel reservation at Frimley hall hotel and Spa, Camberley and also my flight has been booked in a business class accommodation in Emirates Airline, yet my Visa has not yet arrived.  I submitted the visa application last August 26, 2008. I’m kind of worried now that my visa will not arrive on time. I’m hoping for a miracle to happen.

 

This is my first time to travel abroad incase. Hope I would be lucky enough to receive my Visa next week.. Also, im waiting for my visa to arrive, before I buy stuff that I need like luggage, and etc. Hays..

 

PS: I really want this unexpected opportunity come true. It’s a dream that I have been waiting to come true. Lord, please take over.

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working late…

August 19, 2008

I’m a liitle bit tired now… exhausted, drained, and sleepy… but as a whole ? Im Happy and blessed enough..

I should have  leave the office early and  went out with my friends to have coffee and sit down and talk and laugh.. Oh, how I missed it.. sitting in a comfortable chair, listen to nice music and sip your favorite drink..

Anyways, I prefered to work late and finish the 1900 information updates to be made in the database so i wont wait for another day to finish it. I felt relieved when I was able to finish it.

I felt so bad a while ago when I ask somebody  and he did not understand what Im asking/clarifying with  him.. he just immediately  told me:

Cathy, did you not read my email?

Hayzzz…. I really felt bad..maybe his just so tired and think a lot of things. I just need to improve my communication skills..

Here I am sitting  in front of my desk  ready to go back to my apartment. 

PS: I’m so thankful with with all the nice  people I met every day, who made me smile and may God Bless them so they could inspire a lot of people.

 

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sometimes you just can’t take it….

August 17, 2008

The weather is a little bit unpredictable today as my mood swings do… There are a lot of things bothering me… work, deadlines, family stuff and a lot more.

 Yesterday, I was so pissed off with my sister. She texted me around 12pm telling me her cellphone was not working well and can’t be repaired and she really need to get another cellphone. She’s begging me to give her money so she could buy a new one.  What makes me angry was that for me she don’t know how to take care of her things and she would just  ask for a new one.

My sister is in fourth year College taking up Nursing and I kow it would be difficult for her if she don’t have a cellphone. Even i’m so pissed off I can’t take it so I decided to let her use my credit card for her to be able to buy a new cellphone.. Haaayzzzzzzzz. …

I’m preparing to attend 5:30 pm mass.. be back soon..

 

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Mr. Big update

August 10, 2008

It’s been weeks, months I have not talked about MR. Big… What happened to him…to us ?

 

After the breakup and no communication for a long time, we had a chance to meet through Yahoo Messenger.  This time I was not blocked from his list. We talked and he wants to meet me so we could talk. I really don’t know what to say that time . I don’t know if it’s the right time to meet him personally after the break up. I have the feeling that his not yet ready…

 

As we go through our conversation the situation gets worst. Exchanging of bitter words and it’s so painful. I was so hurt and he is too. His blaming me why we broke up and I’m trying to tell him that its not  just my fault. I burst out and cried so much in the office. Ishee my friend went to my place and comforted me and ask me to stay in the conference room so no one can see me with that situation. I really appreciate what she did…

 

I know Mr. Big was so hurt with the situation same with me. I go back at my desk after I’ve calmed down, pretending nothing happened. (more…)

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unwind…

August 8, 2008

I attended Web Development using Asp.Net  training at DB Wizards in Makati  for 1 week August 4- 8. It’s a 1 week break for me at work.

Having the training in Makati is a little bit an effort to travel/commute. The training starts at 9am in the morning. Not that bad huh… Breakfast, lunch and “merienda” was provided. It’s really good when you have training!!! Of course,   don’t need to worry about work for a week, good food, and new knowledge to gain.  I have only 3 classmates during the entire course and our instructor is so nice and pretty.. Hot I may say! Lol

First day of training was so tiring. Going to Makati from Alabang takes some time because of the heavy traffic and I need to endure walking in the crowded streets. Maybe I’m not used to.

Now, its Friday.. last day of training! I’m here seated at starbucks  at China Bank Building near Paseo, sipping my green tea latte rewarding myself after a long day…Actually, I’m waiting for someone… (more…)

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Quite Busy Lately

It’s been a while i have not updated my blog. I have a 1 week training in Makati  andthe last day is today… Looking forward for saturday and Sunday.. I really need rest. :)

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Alone

July 30, 2008

CELINE DION - Alone (Celine Dion)

Its been a while that I have not updated this blog. I have been busy lately at work. For a short time, there’s a lot of things that happened to me worth sharing of. 

I want to share this music I really like, it means a lot to me. Hope you like it.

Alone
Celine Dion


I hear the ticking of the clock
I’m lying here the room’s pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won’t end though
Alone

Refrain:

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

You don’t know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight,oh
You don’t know how long I have waited
And I was going to tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone

Refrain:

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone

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A little bit challenging

July 22, 2008

 

I feel the pressure rushing through my veins.

 

It’s early in the morning and I don’t know were to start working. I have hell lot to do in the office. I’m working as a project automation specialist in engineering company. I do support/administration with all the software used in the project. The project were I’m into just started, a lot of documentation, setup, orientation, and etc. We have a setup and technical audit on Thursday and I need to make sure we comply with the standards.  Haaayzzz. Also, 3 system needs to be develop using Asp.Net.  The other one should be finished within 2 weeks. How am I supposed to do that?

 

I’m trying to handle and cope up with work and the pressure. I’ve been running away with the programming stuff, and here I am trapped with the situation I can run no more. They are expecting me to be a programmer and be able to deliver a system I developed. I am emotionally driven person and like to do things passionately. I could do programming when there’s no pressure and I just do it because I am inspired to do so. Also, provided that I have enough time to work on it and my focus is just for that.  I can’t sustain doing the programming thing when I’m not focused with it, thinking that I just need to do it on my free time.

 

I WORRY too much because I take it seriously. I’ll take the challenge and do what I can.

 

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Must consider…

July 14, 2008

One of the things one must consider before getting married or engaged is to live alone and free.

 

My friend, read this quotation somewhere and pass it to me. It means nothing to me at first, but when you give attention to it, you would realize what’s the true meaning of it.

Living alone means being independent and responsible enough to handle your life. Free to do the decissions in whatever challeges that comes your way.

A time for yourself and enjoy whatever you have. In that way, you would realize and  know whats important to you. Also, value what kind of life you really want.

 

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